It's been awhile

It's been awhile since I last blogged..

I lost my grandpa on 4th October 2008..
and the wake lasted for 7days..

i'm at work now, so i rather not go into the details of the death and all my sorrowful feelings..
if not i might flood the office..

recently i've learnt many things..
and seen many things..
felt many things.. and decided on certain things..

I live my own life and I lead it the way I want it...
I don't know how to put it in words, neither I want to go into details..
I just feel that sometimes I really wonder why are people brought up so differently and behave in such a manner..
Or probably they just don't understand simple english or mandarin?
I can't be bothered..

I just want my precious alvis baby and my sweetest hubby in my world..
and no one else.
or at least it's up to me to decide who should be in my world, not them.

and seriously i don't f*ckin care a single thing you all say.
and neither does my hubby.
really.